Something just isnt right .....

One of the best movies i think i ever watched was The Matrix (part one). It started out dark and lonely with Neo doing hacks for various different individuals in order to make money. When i look back at the movie i think now i like it even more. The reason is i can relate, its almost like a metaphore for what life is like for alot of guys like us who loved computers and technology, had alot to give and willing to learn but ended up doing things in the corporate world that was just plain boring, unfulfilling, full of beaurocracy and people that (outside of work) would never even make the far outer reaches of the circle of friends you have.

There was one thing that i clearly remember from the movie, its when morpheous talks to Neo and says, Neo do you feel that something just isnt right ... that something is missing ... that there is more to the world then you see .. (or something along those lines) and Neo replies with .. YES ...

Sometimes i feel the same way, that things just arnt right, that the work i do and the way i do things just doesnt seem to fit in. That even though i earn alright money it just all seems to suck ... Dont get me wrong, i love my life and most of the things in it, i just hate my work, not any job specifically but just all of it.

This morning i wanted to go to the gym but my clock said 7:30 (which was wrong, it was fast it was only 7:10 grrr) which is abit to late. So instead i started watching youtube videos to start my morning and i came across a great video ... The realization that the speaker talks about is the EXACT same sort of feelings that i have had for a while. If i reflect back to first day at work when i was enthusiastic to even now, nothing i did ever made sense and everything felt DRONE like and uncreative ...

Anyway, watch the video above, i loved it and i thought it was great, it took me about 5 years to make the realization and another 2 years to do something about it. On my defense i must admit, the 5 years to get to the realization, nothing you can do, sometimes it takes time to process all the things you have seen and interprate them in a useful manner but the 2 years of doing nothing (slap on the wrist, thats unacceptable) .. so here it is, a great video (above) ...

EDIT: Even though im still working 4 days a week, doing the startup for the rest of the three days is one of the most exciting things (yes even though sleep is optional), its because everything is new, and very very creative, when your an engineer it doesnt matter if your a manager/director in the corporate world and how much you say you want to work up the ladder, the taste of creativity, vibrante energy, creating and working in a good team just cant be beat .....

Ciao ... and have a great day at work today :(